A New Year reflection

Day 1441 - it's New Year's Eve. Time of personal reflection. Time to look back at the year that passed and summarize it. And what an amazing year it was. So many changes, so many new things I tried. Such a year of personal growth. I left the safety net of an employee in a job I held since I moved here and I started working in the store full time. It does not justify the move yet but I enjoy every moment I am there and I can't even see myself going back. Even if I will be forced to close its doors, I don't see myself going back to work as a pown in a giant and heartless system. So on the work front it was a very good year. True, it's still struggling, and after half a year I don't see a decent salary; but it is on the right track and getting better with every passing month. I did a lot of learning and spiritual development during the year; it's kind of a given when one owns a mystic shop, but I'm just saying, to make sure it is counted among my many blessings. I read many books and I'm also taking a numerology class that I enjoy so very much and I can't wait to start working with it. And the latest news, which I managed to squeeze in is that I bought an apartment. Paper signing and actual closing will be in three month but I finally found a place I want to call home in a price I can afford.

Intervention

Day 1440 - it's been a long week of negotiations and it looked like we are not any closer. As a matter of fact, I was getting concerned that it' going to fall apart. Our attorney said one thing their's another.

Some inconvenience

Day 1439 - a good day in the store and lovely evening outing. We went to a cozy cafe and had good coffee and good cakes and if course each other's company. The only problem is my lactose intolerance. The problem is that sometimes I'm ok for weeks and I think it's not really a problem any more and then it acts up again, like today. But I am not going to let a little inconvenience to destroy even a little a very pleasant day. So I am thankful for this day and I am thankful this unpleasant feeling is not something I experience every day.

A cold winter night fun

Day 1438 - it's getting very cold by now and so for dinner we made a huge pot of soup. I love winter nights for this wonderful experience of steaming soup and warm cozy blankets. And the winter season here is so short; you have to be very aware and enjoy it as much as possible before it makes room for our hot summers. But for the next two months it's gonna be lots of soups and lot of teas and lots of cozy moments. And by next year I hope we would enjoy also a warm house not like this year here in this very cold apartment.

Hiking

Day 1437 - there is a natural reserve less than 200 meters from our house and a nice trail that goes all the way down the mountain and to the sea. This morning was a beautiful day and we decided to go hiking. The weather was warm and sunny though most of the trail is shaded thus not dry yet and very slippery. It is so good to be outdoors for so many hours hiking in the very lush and green vegetation watching the first wild flowers bloom. And that it was nice to sit in a restaurant on the boardwalk people watching and sea watching before the long climb up the mountain back home. We don't do any workout during the week and we work very long hours so I am very thankful for every opportunity to do some hiking.

Movie night

Day 1436 - Friday is a short day here and by 4:30pm I'm always home. I decided that I am tired of another friday evening of doing nothing and searched for good movies in our area. My partner did not want to come, but I was not ready to stay home and just went by myself. I saw a wonderful movie "You're not you" dealing with the very loaded subject if a young woman inflicted with ALS and how she and her surrounding are dealing with her growing weakness and handicapped as well as with her eminent death. A very good movie, depressing and sad, but very good. You come out if it with a strong message of love and caring about another human being. I was so happy I went to see a movie tonight and did not just stayed home again; I am thankful for this movie.

Day one of transfer

Day 1435 - so yesterday we shook hands on the deal but no paper was signed. Coming from the states, where I did a lot of real estate transactions, this is very strange and unsettling for me. So I said nothing about that and since the agreement was that our lawyers will contact each other and prepare the contract I called mine early today. He did not understand my uneasiness or the fact that I don't feel like its a done deal and told me they already talked and have a game plan. That early next month we will sign the contract and if all goes well I will get the keys at the end of March, as we agreed, so I won't have to renew my contract here and I can just move there. So for now, before all the legal checks are done everything looks OK and hopefully in three month I will have my own place and a beautiful one at that. But the journey has just begun and I hope for no surprises. I am thankful I woke up this morning and the deal is still valid, with no written agreement I was a little unsure of that. I am thankful I have a trusted lawyer that takes care of my interest and lead this transaction. I am thankful to be a day closer to the closing date; I am not very patient about that..

I bought a house

Day 1434 - the truth is I knew right away I like the house we saw yesterday. I also knew I cannot pay the price they asked and not even close to it. So I hedged my excitment presuming there is not much of a chance they will accept my offer. We talked to the realtor, actually my partner did, and told her the constrains. We told her we like the house very much but cannot pay the price and we gave her the price I can go for. An hour later she called and said the owner are willing to meet us and see if we can find a mutual ground. Now, I am not good at negotiation and after a year of running the store I know my partner is really good at it and what I like best is that he is doing it in a very gentle way and makes the other side want to help and cooperate. It's an amazing talent he has and I knew its the only chance we have to get this apartment. But I was ready to walk away even though I loved it if need be. And so we met this evening and after less than half an hour we shook hands on the deal that was even better than I was hoping for. So we have only verbal agreement and I will not celebrate it until we will sign the contract. But it looks like I bought a house and an amazing one at that. I am so very happy, on so many levels. I am more thankful I can even express in words. I am so thankful to so many people along the way whom without their help I would not be here today. I feel the planet smiles at me for doing things right, for being a good and honest person, for not looking for more than I need. I am thankful beyond words to my beloved partner who helped me so gently and elegantly to get the house I would love to own and live in for many years to come.

House hunting - an update

Day 1433 - still in the house hunting business and I have to admit its tiring. I work long hours and I don't have the time for it. So I do it in spurs. I look at the ads for a few weeks, look at some houses, getting discouraged and stop looking. After a few weeks I'll start it all over again. Not very efficient, for sure. So I decided to recruit a realtor to help even though it is not as common here as it is in the states. So every so often when she has something she thinks I might like she calls me and take me to see it. There was a nice house a few weeks ago but I didn't like the location. Few days ago I saw another house I really didn't connect with and I tried to explain to her why. And she got it. The apartment we saw today was spot on. Now I have to decide if the so many stairs is a good enough reason to dismiss it and of course the way too high asking price. But at least I finally saw a place I would be happy to call home after almost five years in which I moved from one shabby place to the next. So I am thankful for my hope is up again that I might be able to find a decent house in my budget. I am thankful for the help I get, I wouldn't be able to do it on my own, alone.

It's winter for real now

Day 1432 - heavy rains in a very hilly city is a recipe for problems. I went out of the house today and ran to my car. I knew I will get wet but I forgot about the gushing water running down my street and under my car. The only way to get into the car was to step into this river and so I did because I wanted to get out of the torrential rain. So was was wet from top to bottom with no extra close for the next few hours. I sure hope not to catch some cold. But once I was in the car and driving it was very interesting to watch the water running down the streets in such a force; add to that strong winds that made the umbrellas useless and you have a real winter scene. It's good for nature, for the plants as well as for the water reserves but I sure prefer to watch it from the safety of my house or my store and not to be a very wet part of that scene. I am thankful to be home now, nice warm and dry under my blanket. I am thankful for a real winter day.

The essence of a mystic store

Day 1431 - we run a mystic shop which means that we have a clientele with some very interesting and different set of problems and issues they come to discuss with us. Very different than what you hear in a "normal" store. We are not only selling stones; we sell energies and inspiration, we sell remedies to evil eye and past reincarnations issues; we deal with spiritual guides and aura and chakras repairs. It might sound a little off to you but I love this and it makes for some very interesting encounters and very special people that walk through our door. We had one such story today, a very inspiring one and it makes me feel so good to be a good listener to this woman and her story as well as for the fact we were able to contribute some advise that will help her further along the way. In fact, when I think about it, most of the people today in one way or another needed some inspiration and even more so an advise of how to do things better, how to make small changes that count or how to something else. My numerology teacher told me once that since I have numbers that are doing well for people who need healing these people will come looking for me. And it's so nice to see it happening. It makes me feel so good and I am so thankful for that.

Route number 6

Day 1430 - a long drive back home. Every time I make this trip I am thankful for the only toll road in our country going from the north to the south. It shortens the trip by a good hour if not more and makes for a very easy drive. There is a high fee for rental cars to go on this road so I never took it until I had my own car. But in the past four years I drove it so many time and I was so thankful each and every time I did that. It's a long drive as it is so an extra hour is a big one. And the best of all, it is a high quality road thus it makes for an easy drive. I come home after the long drive not even exhausted. I am so thankful for that.

Family gathering

Day 1429 - at my parents house. My brother and his son came to visit from abroad and they are here as well. So a little family reunion, how nice and special. The fact we are here gives us an opportunity to spend some quality time together, to actually hear what's going on in each other's life plans, dreams and so forth. He lives abroad for many years and I did too so it is so nice to have such an opportunity to be back as a family to have our kids spend time together... The little things we don't think much about and take for granted but in a family like ours it's really a big deal. And I am thankful for this very special weekend to be with my patents, my daughter and with my brother and his son all under one roof.

Making progress the right way

Day 1428 - we made a decision not to advertise in the local newspaper about the store. We felt it is expensive and does not reach our audience to justify it. But the trade of is that it takes time until people hear about us and start coming. It takes time to build a name. But slowly we are getting to that point. True, we have days that too few are visiting us and too many days that the sell volume is not satisfying but then we have days when we have several new clients and this is what we are looking for. I try to use this new tool of the power if the nonconsvious to help. I go every night to sleep and wake up every morning thanking the good sells, the volume if clients and our growing income. And every day that it happens I feel more confident and more thankful. For good clients that appreciate what we offer and bring with them good energy. And today was such a day. So I am so very thankful for that. I am thankful for every client that comes in and trust us.

Frying the night away

Day 1427 - I don't like the smell of fried oil. And so I avoid frying as much as I can. We were probably the only house that never made French fries; if my kids wanted to eat some it had to be in a restaurant. The only exception is once a year on one of Hannukah days I used to make fries "latkes" which is minced potatoes seasoned and fried. And today was that day. Now I ate my share of "latkes" until next year and my house smells like fried oil. I already opened all the windows and burnt a stick of insece but I guess only time will take that smell eventually out of here. But I can say that I fulfilled one of the holiday requirement, the other is lighting a candle which I did. Thanks god we have a "deep frying holiday" only once a year. But I have to admit it was very tasty, at least that.

The first night of Hannukah

Day 1426 - another year is getting close to its end. It is mid December, the shortest days of the year and with it come the "light holidays" of the different religions. Being Jewish, it is Hannukah and today is the first of eight days of that holiday. I forgot to bring my menora to the store so I did not do it on time but its already waiting by the door so I'll take it tomorrow and light it appropriately. We light each day one more candle to symbolize that we're there is a light darkness cannot be, that every tiny little light counts in this endless battle between light and darkness, good and evil, openmindness vs. closedmindness, between living in a dreamlike state or being fully awake. I have a mystic store, you know, so I like to get a little deeper into all these esoteric things. Life is a big mystery and full of things only partially understood. So a day like today, like this holiday, shades a little light on that field. Hannukah, how different it is to live here and celebrate it among millions of our country people who are doing the same thing, where as when I lived abroad it was a holiday that looked so simple when compared to the grandour of Christmas. I like the simplicity, I like that its not all about buying presents and more about the holiday itself. I like being here and feel part of it all. Hannukah, another year is coming to its end. How blessed one can be!!

Being a storekeeper

Day 1425 - a sunny day after days of rain is always nice, even if I could not really enjoy it since I was indoors all day. It's a problem having a store, you have to be there and can't do much else. I was there today from 9 am until 9 pm. A very long day indeed. My partner had some stuff to take care of so he also visited one of our suppliers and brought back a lot of new things, thus the late hour. It's very exciting to go over all these new things and marvel at their beauty and than we have to price it and decide how to display it, and it all takes time. But at the end of this long day the store looks even better than before and everything is in the right place. And now I am very tired and tomorrow is another long day so I am going to start my nightly rituals. But it was a good day and I sure enjoyed it even if I did not walk outside in the warm and bright day that was a perfect ending to a very wet week. I am thankful for a beautiful day, I like it even if it was from afar. I am thankful for good traffic in the store today, a sunny day is always a welcoming environment for shoppers. I am thankful for all the new things we have and I hope it will resonate with our clients.

Big news

Day 1424 - in my age we celebrate a lot of things second hand that is events that happened in our kids' lives. And having three kids myself and same goes for my partner it means a lot of excitements. Like having grandchildren for example. Both of his daughters in law are pregnant and today I was informed by daughter that they are expecting too. So three new babies in a matter of half a year. Every time I hear of a new baby I think how optimistic it is. Everyone likes to complain how bad things are and yet young couples keep making the choice to bring babies into this world so I think it is much better than the news channels like to portray it. And so this is something to bare in mind we we hear all the complaints and all the bad news. Things are much better and much brighter than what they would like us to think. But saying that life is good will not bring the rating everyone is looking for; how sad. So I am not going to lament much about our little one since it is still not a public knowledge but I am so excited about that!!

A winter day

Day 1423 - a cold evening and pouring rain are a proof that we are indeed in the winter months. The warm and sunny morning that preceded that was a little misleading. So much so that I left the washed laundry hung outside while we left home, in a thin shirt and sunglasses just to come home few hours later, shivering to put all the laundry Bach in the washer for another spin to get all the extra water out of it and give it a chance to dry (sadly, I have no dryer). The winter here is funny this way, almost like an English summer, few hours here and there, a little cold, but really nothing to complain about. Love it!!

The power of the subconscious mind

Day 1422 - I was working at the mall today, like every Friday. At 1 pm I still barely sold anything. I was very unhappy about that of course. And them I decided to use one of the techniques mentioned in the book I am reading right now, "the power of your subconscious mind" by Joseph Murphy. And so I closed my eyes and thanked the planet for a very nice sum of money in which I sold today. I repeated this prayer several times. Within a few minutes four people approached my table and bought stuff short only by a few shekels from what I was suggesting! It was amazing to see this happening. To see the power of my subconscious mind when I am ready to start using it. The more I get into the book the more I am convinced that it is something worth adopting. It makes perfect sense, it goes in line with all we hear about people who healed miraculasely or help that arrived just by asking the universe. I witnessed this power on several occasions but never start using it systematically and I thing the time had come for that. I am thankful the book found its way to me; it was meant to be, I know. I am thankful for the little gifts bestowed on me by the planet or the collective subconscious as we like to call it. I am thankful for a great demonstration of the powers of this unfathomed force and for a great day at the mall because of this intervention.

Day 1421 - nothing special to write about. Just another day in the trenches and a slow day at that. What can we do

Marital problems in numerology

Day 1419 and 1420 - my Internet did not work yesterday thus I was not able to post my entry. But i will write about it today since i had a very interesting class in numerology about codes for marital issues. It was even more fascinating when we started looking at real examples from class and you see that all of them with no exceptions had several of the codes. We talked about how we can help to save them if the couple comes to see us on time and which cannot be saved. Interesting, very disturbing but also encouraging on the same time; things can be changed for the better with more awareness and with the right help. But overall like every week I am overwhelm by the power numerology has; by the intricate web that numbers weave underneath all that we see. They are the matrix on which everything is built. And we get to see a little opening in this vast unknown and great wisdom that breath life and matter into it. I am thankful for every lesson I get. I am thankful for this gift I was convinced to bestow upon myself. I am thankful for yet two more wonderful days. I am thankful for my life

A quiet evening

Day 1418 - I never lived through so many ups and downs as in this relationship. We fight and we make up and we fight again. It's not easy for sure and sometimes it's so frustrating that I just want to give up. But this is what happens when you are really emotionally involved and not skimming the surface. I read so many times about very stormy couples and could never understand it but when you have something so special, so worth preserving you are ready to fight and ready to fight for it as well. I sure have to learn how to disagree and not bring it to a world war, I sure have to learn how to live with a partner without any one of us controlling the other and trying to force my opinion. I sure have to learn how to fight fairly. But I am lucky I have a partner who loves me so much that he is ready to get more than his share of my combative nature without giving up. But at the end of a bad day or two we still find the way back to each other, a little shaken but still so much in love. I just hope we will find a way to calm things more as time goes by since sometimes I feel like a boxer in the areana, exhausted at the end if yet another round. I am thankful for a quiet and peaceful evening. I am thankful I have such a partner I love that much. I am thankful for every quiet day, for moments of sheer joy as well as moments of frustration or resentment ; this is all what gives color to life, to our life as a couple.

Day 1417 - reading yet another good book. This time about the power of subconscious.

A quiet evening at home

Day 1416 - I was home alone this evening and looking at my apartment it suddenly donned on me how little did I pay attention to it in a very long time. We are in the store for so many hours and by the time we get home I don't have the energy nor the will to look around. I have to admit it became a habit and as soon as my daughter left I thought of what to do now. But then, as soon as the realization crept in, I stopped and just looked around. It has the potential to be a very lovely place but I stopped short of bringing it to that place. And I know it's all just excuses for something deeper and more profound. And so I took the broom and gave it a good sweep and than grabbed a book and settled on the couch for a quiet evening at home, where I can enjoy the place and the book and some alone time I rarely have. I really don't need much to be at home; just the time and intent. From my numerology class I know that this year is a year of a lot of questions and doubts about my future. So this is all part of the process and I welcome it all. I am thankful for a great weekend at my patents'. I am thankful for every one of those visits and hope for many more to come. I am thankful my daughter is here tonight making more progress on her trip plans. I am thankful for an evening by myself, for some alone time and for a great use of that time.

My laundry list

Day 1415 - yet another weekend at my parents. I sure did a lit of driving this week. I am tired after a very long week that i didnt sleep enough. So here i always have some time to catch up on my sleep. And just relax and for 24 hours take time off of everything that is going on elsewhere. Its like a mini vacation, and i sure need that. I am thankful I'm here visiting my parents this weekend. Thankful I can be with my daughter and hear more of her plans for the upcoming trip. Thankful to my trusted car that did a lot of schlepping this week. Sad that my personal life is at an impass. Thankful that time has a way of solving things. That's pretty much sums it up. Now I can go to sleep.

An unexpected call

Day 1414 - we got a call today asking for one of our services, a fun evening for a group involving tarot cards, as a birthday party for someone. We keep advertising it but this is the first time we actually get an inquiry about it. Not sure yet if it will happen but we are getting ready as if it will. My partner is the one who is doing it of course, but we offered them as a bonus a short numerology analysis and I was working on it this evening. One day it will come to me with almost no effort but right now it's still new and an uncharted territory as far as my experience is concerned. So I took my time to do it right and I was thanking these people for giving me the opportunity to practice. So I am thankful for an unexpected call and hopefully some business that will follow it. And I'm thankful for this opportunity to sharpen my tools and get some practice in numerological consulting. I am also thankful for a long call this morning with my son who is slowly getting all his ducks in a row, almost ready to make the move.

Day 1412 - I drove today to Jerusalem for the circumcision ceremony of my brother's newest grandson. He was born as a tween three weeks ago and was initially too small. But now he is big enough and gaining weight so he was deemed ok. It was a long drive but I live this beach of the family and it was so good to see them all.

About savings...

Day 1411 - I keep thinking I might stop this blog. Not because I am not thankful for every day of my life but because too many times I am too tired to write. But I am still here, almost every day blogging my life away. So for the past few months we are putting the small change we get every day from buying things into a jar. You don't really feel it when you only drop in the small change but consistency is the name of the game. And after a few months of doing so we counted it today to realize we have a nice sum of money; good enough for a mini vacation that we can now take without thinking twice. How nice.

Day 1410 - my brother is very religious. I respect his chices very much but some of their costumes are very different than

Another fun hike

Day 1409 - after a week of rains we had a sunny Saturday. The soil was too saturated for a hike but we were not to let it deter us from a good walk. So we just walked all the way from our house to the sea and back. An hour and a half in each direction and the going back is a serious climb up the Carmel Mountain so we sure got our workout. It was easier than last weekend, and no rain which makes all the difference in the world. But we sure needed our rest at the end of this hike. Working in the store we really don't move around much and this weekly walk is the least we can do to keep in shape and not let our health deteriorate. I hope we'll find so time to get one more walk in the middle of the week. It was so much fun today and we hiked both ways talking and joking non stop that it made the whole trip so nice and the effort so doable. I love it that we spend every day together and we still have so much to talk about. That we still enjoy each other's company so much. I sure don't take it for granted and I am thankful everyday for the love that fills my life that I didn't think possible. For a partner that shares so many of my interests. it comes with its own set of issues and I am learning to deal with that. And I am thankful every day that we've found each other; today included.

Day 1408 -

Fixing my computer

Day 1407 - my new laptop made awful noises today, minutes after I turned it on. When all else failed, I pushed the on/off button. It sure stopped the noise but I could not turn it on again. After an hour or more I gave up and decided to call their help desk. Thanks god to international offices since it was too late on a Thursday night here in my country and they don't work until Sunday morning. And in the US it's Thanksgiving so no one is working there. But the help desk is always on from somewhere around the globe and 16 minutes later my computer was back on the air. It was a serious crash but they were able to guide me through and solve it. So on Thanksgiving night I am thankful for these amazing setup that somewhere in the world it's a work day and an anonymous guy can just walk me through the whole process of getting my computer up and running even though I understand nothing in what happened or what is the meaning of the steps I did per his instructions. The amazing power of world stations and transparent technology if passing my call... I am bubbling, I am so excited it got fixed. I was sure its gone only a month after I bought it!! I thought I'll have to send it back. But all it took is one phone call and 16 minutes of my time. I am so thankful for that.

Living the dream

Day 1406 - my daughter is planning to travel abroad for a few months. It is almost a rite of passage for young people her age. She is full of life and excitement and I am so happy to witness that. You don't embark on such a journey alone, so she was looking for a partner and today they met and decided they are a good match and so another big milestone is behind and the trip so much more real. When I was her age most of our friends did not take that journey and even though I had dreams about doing it I met my future husband and forgot all my grand plans. So I am very happy our daughter is taking the road we never did. There are things you can never come back to and if you misses taking that fork of the road it's forever gone. And at the age of 57 even if I'll go on the same journey it will be with a very different one. I am thankful to see my daughter so happy and full of plans. I am thankful for dreams that never go away and maybe one day will be fulfilled.

Day 1405 - another numerology class that leaves me speechless. It's amazing to see, time and again, how things fall into place. How people act unknowingly according to their numbers, or to phrase it differently, how accurate this system is. With every passing week I gain more confidence and I know a little more and I'm getting closer to the finish line, to the place I'll feel confident enough to start consulting. I am about three months away from that day. The funny thing is that we are scheduled to finish our class a day before my birthday. A nice present indeed. And until then I'll keep practicing whenever I can and become more confident in my ability and understanding of the material. And in the not so far future, I'll put it into good use and finally about 14 years too late I'll start working in the area I was destine to work and didn't. After so many years of delay after delay, of searching for the right venue in this vast field I found my calling and I am getting ready to embark on this path

Oops....

Day 1404 - I fell asleep with my phone in my hand without actually blogging. I guess I was really tired! It's funny because I clearly remember waking up at 2 am, reaching out for my phone, checking what day number it is and pressing the blog button. Next thing I know us waking up now at 6:45am with bright blue skies through my window and my phone somewhere in my bed, and not even one word typed... I don't know why I was so tired, I am working in a store not something so tiring but these are the fact and I am left with is to be thankful for a long and very good sleep, for the chilly morning that is peeking in, for love that is feeling my life and my soul, for another blessed day on this earth.

A good day in the store

Day 1403 - it was cold today and wet most of the day but it did not prevent few of our clients to frequent the store. By the end of the day it accumulated to a very impressive total. If every day will be like that it will be just great. It's really interesting but a little over a year since we opened the store we still don't see a pattern. We still have days when almost no one comes in and days like today that each one that visited bought and in a nice sum. I don't get it but I'm happy when it happens and hope for more such days. But this is what makes it so interesting. You never know how a day will transpire; what the next day will be like. It keeps us in a guessing game, but keeps us in the game. But the most important thing if all, I am thankful for every client, for every sale. I am thankful that a year after we opened our doors we are in the business and doing better with every passing month.

A wintery Saturday on the beach

Day 1402 - after a very rainy morning the sky cleared and we decided to go out for a power walk. We hiked downhill all the way to the beach almost an hour walk. It was beautiful there with the strong wind and a high sea. Rows of high and frothy waves one after another, few seagulls flying and even few other brave souls walking on the boardwalk. I was so happy we decided to chance the weather instead of staying home. We stayed in a cafe there, the only people to sit outside and not inside near the fireplace and after a magnificent sunset we made our way back this time taking the very steep road up the mountain. We made it of course in flying colors and very pleased we got back home. A good exercise, a great time on the beach, and a wonderful Saturday with my beloved partner. It's so easy to be happy; no need for fancy stuff or a high price tag. Just spending quality time with the significant people in my life. I am thankful for a wonderful day. I am thankful for a stormy Saturday on the beach. I am thankful for a great walk.

A stormy night

Day 1401 - long work days and not enough sleep are a good receipt for a very tired person. Add to that a stormy Friday and it will come as no surprise that we came home today and being as tired as we are decided to take a nap from which I just woke up 6 hours later. There's nothing better than being under a very warm blanket hearing the rain and the wind at play outside my window. My plan is to finish this entry and go back to sleep right away. I'm so thankful for bed, food and shelter in a night like this. I am thankful for a much needed rest.

Cooking together

Day 1400 - we went groceries shopping after work and then came home and made some delicious food after a week of no food at home. I love this "cooking together" thing, a we are a great team

Our Anniversary

Day 1399 - today is our second anniversary. Two years ago we met and knew right away that we found our soul mate, that this was it. And sure enough, through ups and down sometimes an emotional roller coaster but with love that only gets stronger as time goes by. And I know that as far as i am concerened, he is and will be my partner for the rest of my life. I am so thankful we've met. I am so thankful to all that our faitful meeting brought into my life.

To be present in my own life

Day 1398 - I read in my book a suggestion to set the alarm on my phone to go off every hour as a wake-up call to remind myself to get back to the present; to be in the moment, to be present in my life. And so I did. I'm not there yet and too many times when the alarm goes off I'm too busy to take the time and be present, which is exactly why this little exercise is so important. We live our days in a mindless manner not really here but almost always elsewhere. So for a few minutes of every day I'm actually where I suppose to be... I am very thankful for my soft and warm bed in a chilly night as tonight. I am so very tired and this is just wonderful.

Day 1397 - there are moments in ones life that are so defining that events will be measured as "before" or "after" that moment; same goes of course for couple's life. Today was such a day. Painful and enlightening at the same time; with honesty and love and even tears.

Insurance

Day 1396 - a year passed since we opened our store, so now we are in the realm of comparing and of doing things for the second time; like insurance for the store. Last year I just asked my insurance guy to do that but this year we decided to get some other quotes as well. And after doing that we decided to renew our policy with my insurance guy. So we asked him to come to the store and this morning we had the meeting. The funny thing is that I got his name from a guy in the agency where I bought my car and I never even met him. So after four years of doing business with him he finally came to the store. I think it's a good thing to do that, to put a face to a name, and in our case it was important for us that he'll see the store and assures us that it's well insured and suggests what to do if he thinks it's not. We did get some tips, I also did some changes to my personal insurance, so an important visit. And we got the peace of mind that the business is well covered. We all know that insurance we do with the hope we'll never have to use it, we actually pay for our peace of mind. To cover des asters that can be to heavy financially for us to bare alone. I am very thankful for that, for another year of peace of mind and I sure hope I'll never have to use it.

The First Nobel truth

Day 1395 - reading some more in my Dzogchen Buddhism book I came to the Four Nobel Truths, the basis of Buddhism. Life is suffering, the fact that we arrived in our corporeal body into this world means that we will change from one moment to the next, that we will experience unhappy moments physically and emotionally and we are bound to get weaker, sicker and finally die. This is just a fact of life. There is nothing we can do that will change this fact. But this is not the source of the suffering; that one comes from the simple fact that we refuse to accept that; from trying to force reality to change; from our inability to really see the truth and accept it for what it is without loading it with emotions, desires, expectations, attachments, conditions... In short we are the cause of our sufferings nothing else. It sounds so logic and reasonable but it is very difficult to do. We are masters of avoidance, of denial and our ego walls so high. How do I go about slowly breaking habits of many years? How can I be more present in the little time I have on this planet, in this lifetime? I set my alarm clock to ring once an hour 12 times during the day, calling it a wake-up call. To remind me to come to the moment and be present. I ate my toast mindfully, chewing each bite about fifty times. Same idea, to be present in my life, to be more aware. I took a shower with the same practice- noticing the water, the soap, the sounds and sensations of such a simple act, by being aware. Will all that help? I have to do it and see for myself. But this is a tried path that so many walked before, that I know I can trust it. And in the mean time I get few awareness moments, if nothing else. And I am so thankful for that.

Visiting my my elderly parents

Day 1394 - i am visiting my parents. On my way I picked up my daughter so it's the both of us. It's sad to admit but my pparents are getting older and the burden of taking care of my dad is taking its toll on my mom. My dad is loosing his hearing and refuses to use hearing aid which makes communication a little difficult. In short time is doing its thing and if become. More apparent with every visit. I read somewhere "time is not passing; we are" how true, how sad. It's not easy to see our loved ones slowly getting to the end if the line. Bent and frail, slower and I guess towards the end ready to get there, or at least not resisting it too much. It is us, the ones left behind that are mourning that, more for ourselves that for the deceased, remained all too clearly, that our time is nearing too; and it is unavoidable. Time, little time is all we have with these dear people that were strong parents to me when I was little and are not so strong anymore but are and always be so dear to me. I am so thankful I came back to my country four years ago and at least had few years with them, even if not their best. And I sure took full advantage of that in those years. I am thankful to be here today and to know there still a little time left...

About selling one's arts and crafts

Day 1393 - few days ago I visited one of our suppliers and saw a string of beads made of Rise Quartz and it gave me an idea for something I can make out of it. Today I finally had the time and all the other suppliers I needed for it and I made it. And it came out even more impressive than I imagined. And it made me so happy. Only last week I talked about not being in touch with my creative side and here I am, proving this is not true. I might just not in a painting period but I sure am back in my beading corner, happy as a lark to make more and more bead jewelry. There is not a single day I don't make something for the store to display and sell, all with crystal beads or chips and all are very well accepted by our customers. And it makes me very happy. First because it keeps my creative side in high gear and secondly because when I make things and don't have to buy it from a supplier, my customers get a better deal and still my profit is greater; and best if all it makes me so happy to know that things I made are decorating houses all over the city and adorn many women. It's a very special feeling indeed.

Frailty of life

Day 1392 - my partner had to go through an invasive procedure today. Nothing serious just a baseline data. Still it's with sedation and all. I was waiting for him in the recovery room as he was getting over the anesthetic and a though crept in that we are in this stage if life that for some people it is not just a baseline but a serious illness they are fighting. It is unsettling to know this is the direction we are going, that as time pass we will get weaker and frail maybe even sick. We better enjoy every day we still have here in a carefree mode and hope that we are right in assuming that if we live right and think right our bodies will work just fine all the way to the finish line. We all know that one day we'll die but it's so much easier never to think about it; not better, just easier. But if I want to be a Buddhist this is not the right way to do things. I have to fully acknowledge my eminent demise for my life to fully blossom. Today I sure got a preview of that, I hope to take full advantage of that.

About being ready

Day 1391 - I started today my advanced numerology class. I know I need this class to feel I am knowledgable enough to start doing analysis for others. I don't feel that the basic class is good enough; so, it was very interesting to hear one of our classmates talking about the readings she is doing for others. I asked myself am I just afraid to make the commitment thus keep taking classes or is it real. And I am sure it is real. Even after one class I can already see things I was not aware of and I am sure there is so much more to come. And I don't like to get the job half done. I feel as if I betray the people who trusted me and I am not ready to do that. So I will wait four more months before calling myself a numerologist and start reading for people. I am so happy I decided to take the advanced class.

About faith

Day 1390 - my niece gave birth today to twins; a boy and a girl. This by itself is big news. Add to that the fact that she already has three little kids at home, the oldest is not even 5 yet. And add to that the fact that she is only 22 years old... I only have three children and still it's not easy. I can't even imagine being so young and with such a big family. But I know they'll be just fine. They live in a very tight knit community and everyone, especially her family, will help her. And I know that as young as she is, she's a great mom. It just leaves me speacless thinking about this huge task they have. It's interesting to see how religious people take things so differently then secular people. They are doing think with great trust in a higher power who leads them and never let them fall;whereas secular people feel they have to be in total control, as if it's even possible. Faith is what help people to do the impossible; the belief that if they'll fall He will be there to lend a hand and help them back to their feet. And this knowledge gives great powers to ho forward, even when the get going is so very difficult.

Day 1389 - after closing the store I went to buy some groceries. Exciting considering the fact that the whole of last week I didn't do that and we had no groceries at home anymore.

A different kind of wedding

Day 1388 - we went today to a very unusual wedding party. The actual ceremony took place two months ago in a very private manner, only the closest family members attended and now it was a party for the extended family and for all their friends. The groom is a professional juggler and also teaches acrobalance in a youth circus school. So the part was on the school grounds. Very laid back of course, vegetarian food and a lot of activities for the many children that were present. The climax was a show of the groom, his brother some of his friends that are from the professional circle as well and the exhibition team if the school. SUch a different kind of event!!

A need to reconnect

Day 1387 - I want to go back to my painting class but it seems as if i lost touch with the creative side of me. For more than a year i did not touch my paints and my brushes and an attempt to do that last week ended up with a heavy heart. I so dislike the little i produced that i painted white wash all over it. And today I wanted to draw a mandala and the same thing happened, I felt totally out of touch and unable to reach in and find that creative part of me. I have to admit it was very disappointing. So now I have two options - I can give up or I can try to rekindle the fire. So of course I'll take option B. the question is how to go about it? Going back to my class and hope to find it there or should I repeat the program "the artist' way" with the hope it will have the same effect on me. I might choose the middle ground - two or three weeks of the program before going back to class. I just don't want to wait 3 months to finish the program. So tomorrow night I'll start and I hope it will do wonders this time around just as the last one. I am thankful for a great day at the store. I am thankful for a lovely evening on the beach; with fleece it's still doable and much fun. I am most thankful for realizing I lost touch with my inner creative child and even more so for knowing what to do to try to reconnect.

More comfortable meditation

Day 1386 - I woke up this morning very early and decided to sit for a meditation session instead of going back to sleep. It was the first early light and all was quiet and calm and the best thing was that my mind was cry calm after a good night sleep. I put my alarm clock for 22 minutes, as I decided yesterday, but when my time was up I felt I can do more and so I did. I stopped the watch after 34 minutes and was so happy about this wonderful achievement. It gave me so much calm for he rest if the day and a real push to keep doing that. So this is a very short entry and as soon as I am done I'm going to sit for my night meditation. I hope I will have a good experience as well. I am thankful for this gift of calm I am finding. I am thankful for every little step on my way to a more aware life. I am thankful for every moment of my life, just as they are.

Meditation

Day 1385 - I decided to start meditating on a daily basis. With the goal of doing it for an hour twice a day. Yesterday it was very difficult and I could not even keep the 20 minutes I set on my alarm clock at the moment. But tonight it was better and my mind did not play havoc with me so the 20 minutes passed very easily and I will try tomorrow a 10% increase, meaning 22 minutes. Even though it's only few days I can feel the difference already and I hope it will get much better with time. I want to quiet the endless chatter in my brain and to get better control over my reactions, to learn to be fully conscious and mindful. I own a mystic shop so I see that as a great opportunity for me to grow spiritually and meditation is one of the best practices for mindfulness. So here I go, I am taking my first baby steps in his fascinating direction and I hope it will be my quest and my journey for the rest of my life. I doubt if I can reach enlightenment in the little time I still have on this planet in this life time, but for sure I can make a real progress and start my next cycle in a better place, closer to that goal. And regardless, it will make the quality of my life so much better and richer because of that. So I am thankful for the progress I MADD today. I am thankful I got the time and place and will to develop myself in this direction. I am thankful for every moment of my life.

My dream

Day 1384 - a good day in the store after a very challenging month. After few very quite weeks we had a very active traffic of customers. A welcome change. I see obstacles in as Buddhist way as I can, telling myself that it's temporary and I have to learn to accept valleys in the same way I welcome hilltops; with gracious heart. We cannot just welcome one aspect of life and not the opposite, we'll never fully appreciate success without the opposit colors of failure, or at least hardship. So here I am with a humble heart accepting both and putting my trust in the thinking matter if this universe that it will let me succeed in this heart quest of mine; that it will let me and my partner make this dream a reality.

A midweek visit

Day 1383 - my daughter came to visit tonight and we got to spend few hours together. She is planning to go on a few months trip and is, of course very excited about it. It is kind of a coming of age tradition in our country to travel abroad for a few months after getting out of the army and before college and now she worked to save enough money and is in full gear, planning wise. I think it is a great tradition and I am so happy she is going to take full advantage of it. When I was her age it was not as common but I still had it in mind. But I let the circumstances to take control and forgot to stir my own wagon and I know I missed a very special experience, something that cannot be done later in life. And so, I am so very happy she is smarter and going the right way, collecting memories that will last a life time and will probably shape her life a great deal. I am happy I can do it vicariously through her plans and hopefully in a few years I will do my late bloomers' trip. Different but still very special. I am thankful to see my daughter here after a month I didn't see her. I am thankful to see her so happy and full of life, full of plans. I am thankful for a wonderful evening we got to spend together.

Back home and off the air

Day 1380 I was on route with no Internet access. Days 1381 and 1382 I lost my SIM card during the trip and could not reinstall a new one until Sunday. So i got to spend a relaxing weekend with no Internet access. A very quite one. Having a quality time with my partner after two weeks away. And a very rainy Friday added to the coziness and the romance. I really missed him very much and it was good to be back together. On Saturday we had a long hike on the beach, went to a restaurant and I mainly rested, a little jet lagged on this side of the ocean as well. And today I finally got my phone back on and I am now officially back. I am so very happy to be back in my routine, with all the great hospitality of my friend and my kids it's still not home and I was out of my daily life, yet not really a tourist so a little uncomfortable situation. But I am doing happily every time because it gives me a chance to sped some time with my kids. And I cherish that so very much. I am thankful to be back home. I am thankful for the wonderful time I got to spend with my partner this weekend. I am thankful for finally being back on the air today.

Just before takeoff

Days 1377, 1378, and 1379 - I have not been very good about blogging this trip. But it's been a wonderful one. I saw my son almost every day, I got to spend time with my friend and I got to visit several mystic stores. I learned some new things and got few ideas and now I am ready to get back home. It is not the kind of trip where I travel around so after a while I just want to get back home and to my life. I might have to shorten my visits in the future; two weeks is too long of a trip, especially if my son will leave the area. My daughter's schedule is not such that justifies a two weeks visit. I'll have to see how it unfolds. I'm on the plane, and about to leave. Farewell America and hello Israel. I'm so happy to be heading back home.

Day 1376 - an afternoon with my granddaughter

Sunday...

Day 1375 - my last days here and the last weekend. I got to sped the with my son again. This time I joined his day the way he likes his Sundays. Football at the local sport bar and later hanging out at his apartment. He explained the rules and the formations (sadly, I never followed the game before) and the truth is that when I understood that the game became interesting. So we hung out at the bar for several hours and I learned about football and about fantasy football and it gave me a little pick into part of his world I never before took the time to understand. So I was very happy about that. I think that a long visit gives me that rare opportunity to get to know my kids better. And it gives me some real quality time. I feel lucky that at the age of twenty eight my son still invites me to hang out with him. And I love the weekend for the free and in-hurried time it gives us.

Quality time

Days 1373 and 1374 - I'm not keeping up with my blog on this trip; somehow time is not so real and definit. For the first time since I arrived I went to the bay land yesterday for a hike. I even ran for 15 minutes, something I didn't do in a very long time. It was beautiful as always and very serene and I was very happy about the running part of it; maybe I'll be able to get back to running... Today I went back there with my son, just strolling but still enjoying the walk and even more so the talk. I spend the last two days with my son and it was wonderful. He is at a point of making big decision and I am very happy to be of help while he's contemplating his future moves. I also just enjoy his company and our long talks after a year apart. It makes me happy to see him getting more comfortable in his own skin, to see him getting more mature and responsible. I treasure days like today so much. I sure don't take even one minute of it for granted.

Still jet lagged!!

Day 1371 and 1372 - I cannot get rid of the jet lag this time. Usually I just wake up the next morning on local time and that the end of the story, but on this trip it's a whole different story. By the late afternoon I get so tired that I can barely open my eyes. Yesterday it was during a drive back from San Francisco, really not the best timing. I had a dinner date with my friend and immediately after that I drove back to her home, where I'm staying during my visit, and decided to take a nap because I was so tired. I slept through the alarm I set and only woke up three hours later when my phone rang. And promptly went back to sleep until 4 am. Such a bad sleeping pattern will just keep the situation going. I'm not sure what's so different this time that the jet lag is such an experience but something is not as usual. In a week I a flying back home and I sure hope the scenario will not repeat itself there. Today I'm in SF again and I hope for a better ride back home. It was a real torture yesterday. I am taking the time to visit different mystic shops here in the area and hopefully get some new ideas for our store. And it is interesting to see the direction that each store takes. Each one has a very different flair and identity and it is very interesting to examine them with this in mind. Tomorrow I'll go back to one of the store I visited last year before we opened, I'm sure ill see things I didn't notice last time and have few more questions to the owner. It's nice to mix pleasure and work, especially where for me, this work is a real pleasure. So the stores close early here and by now I finished my scouting for today, the rest will be done tomorrow. Few more minutes to let the commute traffic subside and I'll hit the road on my way home. I am thankful for a pleasant and productive day in the city. I am thankful for a good night sleep, even if in installments, I sure learned to appreciate it this time around. I am thankful for the privilege to be a tourist in this beautiful city, I sure didn't do it enough while I lived less than an hour away for so many years, but I do it now and it's wonderful. I am thankful for my day.

Alone time

Day 1370 - both of my kids are away for the next few days. It's a little sad since I am here for such a short time but I can't expect them to take time off from their life just because I'm here, so we all do our best and this is why I come for two weeks - to have more of a chance to see them. I also learned last week that my daughter is planning a visit next month and my son plans to arrive in two months so all is good. I spend the day with my friend who hosts me at her home, so I'm very happy about that. I did some research as to where I want to travel in the next few days, there's plenty to learn for the store so I am looking forward to that. It's late and I am very tired by now. I have to wake up early tomorrow so this will be it for tonight. I am thankful for the time I got to spend with my kids. I am thankful for special time with my girl friend. I am thankful for Skype that as always cuts the distance and makes my time away more barable.

Day 1369 - another day here with my kids. It is very special exactly because of that. I got to spend few hours with my daughter and her family and then a few with my son. I feel so blessed I can do that. My granddaughter was diagnosed today with pneumonia and coming back here tonight I felt a little under the weather and by now I am shivering and I feel hot, I hope I'm not getting sick. Still, even i

The benefits of a short visit

Day 1367 and 1368 - I guess I am still jet legged since I forgot to post my sorry excuse for a blog on Thursday and totally forgot to write on Friday. Opsss... But I hope I am now back on my tracks. So Friday I got to see my daughter and my little granddaughter and it was so wonderful. I spent a long time with them and it was so great. I comes as no surprise that a little girl develops so much in a year. She was a toddler and now she is a little girl. Coming here after such a long time means I get to spend a lot of quality time with my loved ones, my kids, my granddaughter and my friends so in a way I think we get to spend more of a quality time than had I lived here and met them more often. It is the distance and the scarcity that brings the intensity, thus the quality into every day stuff.

Days 1365 and 1366 - enroute to the US without a computer so no way for me to blog. But I got today a local SIM card and now I can blog again. I saw my son yesterday night upon my arrival and it was wonderful. A year is too long of a time between meetings.

A day off

Day 1364 - yesterday I had an epiphany; even though we have a store we did not sign up for slavery. Or in daily language, we can and should take a vacation even if we are self-employed and every day that the store is closed we "loose" money. A day off in the middle if the week when things are open and we were tourists for a day. We have to remember that we cannot always delay things for later and never live the moment. It sure was something very special. Quality time, just the two of us, all over the Galilee, visiting little known places, some cultural adventures as well, and above all the joy of an unexpected vacation was just what we needed. We are sure to repeat this again. And for me, even after four years since I returned here I find so many places I knew nothing about. I am thankful for a great idea to take time for ourselves. I am thankful for a wonderful day with my beloved partner.

Getting ready

Day 1363 - In three days I am traveling back to the states to see my older kids and my granddaughter after a year away. So finally I decided to get out my suitcase and start packing. I always do that on the last day but I don't , want to miss things so I started early. As always

What should I do with my life

Day 1362 - I'm reading a book about existential psychology and it brings up the subject of death and our very basic and deep fear of it. The efforts we put into avoiding thinking about it, as well as the well known fact that only when we face our death we can fully live. An interesting subject indeed. The Buddhism deals with that and I read few books about that but I don't really ever ask myself these questions or think about them very much. And by avoiding the subject I lower my awareness to my life as I live them minute by minute and let the events and circumstances take control. At my age and life experience, it is time to take one more step in this direction. Define priorities and things I wish to accomplish and set timeline so at the end of my life I will not have too many regrets. I came here four years ago with so many plans and somehow I let life get in the way of "living" and all my dreams were put on hold. I will take the coming few weeks to actually think things over and see what I'll come up with. I am thankful for every reminder that life is so short and should not be put on back burner for later. I am thankful for the leading hand of the universe that put this book in my hand. I am thankful for an opportunity to grow up.

Day 1361 - a slow and restful weekend with my daughter, just before my flight to visit her siblings. Reading books, watching a movie, long talks, and of course cooking, eating and going out for coffee. I love those weekends she's here and we get to spend some time together. As our kids are getting into adulthood they have their own lives to manage and we become observers, and less involved. So every little bit of closeness is precious and cherished.

Looking ahead

Day 1360 - an interesting movie about a dysfunctional family followed by a heart to heart talk with my daughter. I think that the worst thing about such family is that the kids don't have a good role model to create a better family for themselves. And being a member of a family like that, my daughter is rightfully concerned about the future. I told her my belief, that she knows what to be attuned to, what are the kind of behaviors that should set the alarm. That she has a good chance at a better family exactly because of that. But I can understand her concerns. The last thing I wanted is for my kids to be hurt and yet I was not smart enough to prevent it. I can just hope my kids will be smarter and make better decisions than me. It is so sad and painful looking back and knowing I failed, and I let down my kids. And there is nothing I can do to change that; except listening to their pain if they choose to share it with me.

Segment three of the trail

Day 1359 - we hiked segment three of the Israel National Trail. It was a very hot day and I am exhausted. But it was much fun and we are 55 km into the trail. (55 out if 940 km, but still 55 km. my partner has serious back problem right now, but this is not a good enough reason for him to skip it. So it was not an easy task but a very fulfilling one. But as I said, I'm so very tired and at 9:00pm I'm already in bed.

Day 1358 - a good day in the store after a very slow week and tomorrow is a holiday, one of many in the month of Tishrei, so we are planning a short hiking trip, thus an early bedtime.

Graduation

Day 1357 - today was the last day of my numerology class. It is a very strange feeling. Something that was part of my routine for the past five month is ending. And I loved this class. The good news is that in three weeks I will start the advanced class so it's not really over, but still a milestone on my road to a new career as a numerologist. I am looking forward to the day I'll feel comfortable enough to call myself that. It was a very spontaneous decision and a wonderful one. A world I knew nothing about, open in front of me. Every week I am coming back after class all excited about the new things I learned. I look at my life and the choices I made very differently. And I am looking forward to do that for other people and help them at important junctions to make better choices, to have easier and more fulfilled life. It is an amazing feeling. And I know I am so lucky to have this tool in my life. I am thankful for the knowledge I gained in the past five months in this exciting field of numerology. I am thankful I can now call myself at least when no one head, a beginner numerologist. I am thankful to my partner for opening my eyes to this exciting field thus to a new career. I am thankful to the friends I gained in the past few months and especially to a great teacher that helped us take our very first steps in this field.

Day 1356 - posting late due to technical difficulties

I love the fall

Day 1355 - the nights are getting colder. We love eating our meals on our porch, and by now we have to put on a fleece jacket, especially at night. And to top it all I pulled out my beloved dawn comforter tonight, it's that chilly at night. So yes, the seasons are turning and yet another fall is here. I love this time a year with its chilly nights and bright blue days. The heaviness of the summer is over and the wetness of the winter is not here yet. Its the perfect time of the year. True, it's not as beautiful as in New England with the splendor of colors it presents, but for my simple needs the modest display of colors and the very welcoming relief from the humidity are all I am asking for. And the reminder of the passing of time is the most important part of all. Use what you still have wisely, the clock keeps ticking and your days on this earth are getting shorter. "Don't fall asleep on your watch, man". I am thankful for this welcomed guest among us, the fall. I am thankful for all the gifts he brings with him. I am thankful for yet another reminder to live my life well, life of no regrets.

Day of atonement

Day 1354 - Tom kippur here, day of atonement. A day of fasting and reflection. A very quiet day. Almost no one is driving, only emergency vehicles, no TV, no radio or music if any kind. You hear no one, no cars, no neighbors, not even little kids. So a perfect day for relaxing and sleeping. A very slow and quiet day. Originally we planned to go hiking for the two days of the holiday but due to health issue we had to change our plans. So we stayed home, took long naps and talked. And it was wonderful. I hope next year we will be able to go hiking, but I have to admit it was a very needed time off. And now I feel recharged and ready to save the world. I am thankful for a very lovely weekend. I am thankful for food and rest. I am thankful by the end of the weekend my partner feels better.

Relationships, commitment and love

Day 1353 - my partner has some health problems right now and he feels very bad that it has an influence on my life. It sounds silly but I see where he is coming from. In our first marriage we take it for granted that we have this responsibility towards each other. Especially since it looks so far out and we see so many years of good health ahead of us that it's almost an academic discussion. But in a later relationship we are older, each one brings into the mix history as well as health issue and since no children are involved, the ties are weaker and nothing is taken for granted. It is not a given that a partner of few years will want to stay by our side if things are getting bad, especially if there is no real prospect of getting healthy again. I never thought of that before but when he expressed how bad he feels about the burden his health issued are putting on me I suddenly had this very depressing thought. I sure don't see it this way but I know many do and it's sad. It's also sad that most if our healthy years are behind us and its only a matter if time before things will pop-up. But I made a choice to leave my comfortable life at the age of 52 so I will have to deal with all those questions. But coming to think about it, I prefer to do things because I choose and not because I am obligated. And I cherish so much more every day of good health and good fortune because I know my days are limited and who knows how many years we have to enjoy each other. I am thankful for every day we have together, healthy or not so. I am thankful for every day I still have on this planet of ours.

An old hobby of mine

Day 1352 - I had a meeting today with my CPA to go over my tax return. It's almost a year since I opened the store and from a very modest beginning it grew to a nice place. Still not where I hope to see it but by now it is in a good enough place that it can go on like that for a long time, especially since we see an increase in sales from month to month. It makes me very happy since I don't want to give it up. I love my store and the qualities it brings into my life. I love the spiritual development I did this year. And I M looking forward to the day I can start doing numerology consultation. I love the direction my life is going and so I needed this external reinforcement that it's looking ok and I can continue doing that. I never thought I will own a mystic store, but now that I do, I am so thankful for that. I feel so lucky to work in a field that intrigued and inspired me for years; that I used to spend days in stores like that and now I can spend weeks and months there. I am so thankful I had the insight to turn my hobby into a business.

Day 1351 - an evening on the beach this time a year already requires a top layer to keep us warm. But when we did that we were rewarded big times. The fresh sea air, the moon's reflection on the water, the soft humming of the waves rolling towards the beach... So much pleasure one can drive from the simplest things of all.

Day 1350 -

The rain

Day 1349 - only yesterday I wrote about the fall and this morning we had a very serious rain. Very early in the season, it was surprising but it was real. After half an hour the rain stopped and we were left with beautiful sunny day and very clean air. I don't really think that the rainy season is here, but it is a big sign it is coming soon. And after the very dry winter lash year. I am thankful for this early sign of winter. I am thankful for the turning of the seasons, it brings with it certain quality of stability and change. I am thankful for living through another day.

Fall is here

Day 1348 - the fall is really here by now. The nights are getting cooler and this morning I woke up to the sound of raindrops on the vegetation outside my window. Being the first rain after weeks of summer, the air is full of dust and the rain was just long enough to leave its mark on all the cars, but not strong enough to wash it away. So everything now is looking like drops of water on a dust covered surfaces. Still, it's nice to see the fall setting in and the very humid summer is over Veblen hit days like we had on our hike are not so humid so much more bearable. I love this time a year with its colors and smells; I love the weather this time a year. Some people would live to live in eternal summer; I love the spring and the fall so much more. I am thankful for the fall here, as short as it is. I am thankful I lived to see yet another fall and hope for many more to come.

New year visit

Day 1347 - a wonderful visit to my parent's house. A lovely day with them, and with my daughter, my brother, my sister and all her family and a surprise visit of my adopted brother and his wife. In short a very emotionally packed day that is very befitting the New Year that we celebrated even if a little late. everyone is doing well and it makes me happy to see all the good energy around me, to see how full and fulfilling my life are. If only my older kids could be here as well... But it was my choice to leave and I can't even think that aloud, because it's not fair. But over all I am so very happy with my choice to move back here and I am going to see them both as well as my daughter's family in a little over two weeks, so I am very happy for that already. So a good year that passed,hopes for a good one in front of us and a wonderful day to day; what else can I ask for, so the ups and downs we all experience are what make every day so very special. I am thankful for the past year. I am thankful I got to celebrate the coming of the new year with my loved ones. I am thankful for every day of my life.

Day 1346 - I am at my patents with my daughter and my brother. Celebrating the new year with them all.

Segment two of the trail

Day 1344 - we walked the second segment of the Israel Natiol Trail and the truth is that we are so tired right now, I can't even write. But it was a wonderful day. A challenging hike on a very hot day. But a very fit way to celebrate the new year. I hope this will mark a year full of such activities. We are thinking right now of doing at least one segment a month so this is a very long term plan, considering the fact the it is more than forty segments long. But I am very excited about this plan. First of all doing the entire trail is something on my Bucket List and I love hiking so for me it's alway a good plan to go hiking. True that for over a year we didn't hike but the excuses time is over and now we are just doing it. I am thankful for a wonderful hike today. I am thankful we came out with the plan to do the trail segment by segment. I am thankful for a wonderful New Year.

New year

Day 1343 - the Jewish New Year is here. Early meal for we have to wake up at 3 am. But still an important day. Looking back at the past year is interesting. It's been a very important one. I made the final transition to the store. Leaving the safety net of a permanent job to the unsure world of an independent one. Did I mentioned that I love that?

A short night

Day 1342 - it's almost 1 am and I have to wake up on five hours. Tomorrow is our New Year eve and in the Jewish tradition a holiday is celebrated the night before, means tomorrow evening. So I have to cook the traditional food for tomorrow and for Friday when I'll visit my parents. And let's not forget that I also have a store and have to be there, and I had my numerology class tonight so I could not cook today. So a lot of work. Luckily my partner already made the soup so one less thing tomorrow. In short, a short night but a full stomach and a full heart. A wonderful day to start the new year!!

Day 1341 -

Fall

Day 1340 - the fall is slowly moving in. The days are getting much shorter, and the nights much cooler. This evening it was a little chilly for me outside in my shorts and t-shirt, and I even pulled out a thin fleece blanket, just in case. As always, I am sad to see the summer leaving our part of the world, but I welcome yet another wonderful fall, my fifth one here since I moved back. I love the dryer air after the very humid summer, I love the fact we don't sweat now. I live this country so much, I am so thankful for being here.

Day 1 of the trail

Day 1339 - now it's official; we started the "Israel National Trail". It comprise of 40 some segments and we did segment 1. It is an easy 15 km hike that is almost two hours away from home. So it took us more time to drive than to walk. But it is the beginning of a very long journey. A physical journey in the material world all the way from Dan to Eilat; but it is also a spiritual journey connecting with my unconscious mind, connecting with a part of me that is not always present and walking has the ability to bring some of it to the surface. I hope that many new ideas and understandings will come to me as a result of this quest. I am thankful for the opportunity to walk the trail in its entirety. I am thankful I have a partner who loves it at least as much as u do. I am thankful for the opportunity to explore my world in such a special way. I am thankful I can go to sleep now after a very short night and a very long day.

Israel National Trail

Day 1338 - going to sleep early before a very short sleep. We are going to start our quest to walk the entire "Israel National Trail". Due to the circumstances we cannot walk it all in one attempt, so we'll have to adopt the other option and walk it in daily installments as often as we can. And tomorrow is the beginning of this endeavor; I have to admit I am very excited about that!!

Day 1337 - it's not that I'm not thankful the last few days, on the contrary, I really am; but I'm also way too tired to write. And to add to that I also ate some sour cream and now it is confirmed; I cannot tolerate it. So a difficult evening

Day 1336

Day 1335 -

Planning ahead

Day 1334 - it is a tradition in our religion, and our country to eat fish balls for New Year's Eve feast. I love that and after years I couldn't make it while I was living abroad, I am so happy I can go back to that tradition. The only problem is that I am not the only one who likes it. There is nothing that can explain how the fish shops work few days before the holiday. No one wants now a days to do the hard work of skinning the fish, deboning, and grinding it so you pay a little extra and get it as ground meat with the bones in a separate bag, because you need them for the cooking - this is the source of gelatin and it will make the soup into a delightful jelly when chilled. In short when you order your fish you are given a day and an hour when you can pick it up. But as I found out last year, even when I called ahead of time if my order is ready and came two hours later that the original time, I still had to wait in line for over an hour. So this year I finally got smarter. I called last week and got a slot for today and when I came to pick it up I was thrilled to see no one in line. I just picked up my order, paid and was gone all in less that 10 minutes. I came home, put it in the freezer and next week, a day before the holiday, I'll thow it, cook, and be done. I was so happy I finally learned how to handle the holiday rush, just to be a little more organized and plan. Same is true, by the way, for all the last minute rush to buy presents before the holidays. I really dislike the fever of the night before a holiday

About being thankful

Day 1333 - being thankful every moment is a challenge, especially when the going gets rough. This was an email I got today from a woman I read her writings for the past several jobs. We are so busy wishing for the extrodinary that we neglect to see the trifles that make life the wonder that it is. I started this blog exactly for this reason. But even then a little reminder is important. So I purged my life today of few more items that were holding painful memories that better fade and be forgotten. And i got few new pictures of my granddaughter, who is not so little any more. I am thankful for my life just as they are with all the ups and downs, with all the uncertainty and the open end. I am thankful for the sun and the blue sky; for the sea that I can enjoy almost every day. For smiles and moments of tenderness. I am thankful to be so alive.

A great hike

Day 1332 - My daughter is staying here for the weekend and since the weather is getting a little less hot and more manageable we decided to go a hike up the Carmel mountain, not far from where we live. She is planning a trip to the far east in a few months that will include high altitude trekking, it is a good idea to start conditioning for that. I am ashamed to admit but I didn't hike in a very long time. Sadly life got in the way of my hiking tradition so the climb today was a little harder than it should have, but I did it and I also got the itch to get back to that. I don't think I can commit to a weekly hike but anything will be better than what I do right now. We came back home tired but very satisfied with our trip. She talked most of the way about her plans and I was so happy for her, it is a right of passage for young people here in our country before they get serious about their life, a few months travel somewhere in the world is a great way "the Hero's quest" as Karl Young called it. I didn't do it when I was her age and I always felt I missed a great experience, so I am very happy she is planning that trip. So today was my little contribution to her first step on this important path. I am thankful for a wonderful hike. I am thankful for the wonderful company. I am thankful I got to hear my daughter's plans and be part of this exciting endeavor, even if in such a minor part. I am thankful for hours of throwing away stuff we both did later in the day. My life already feel a little less cluttered.

A fun evening

Day 1331 - an evening on the beach with my daughter followed by a feel good movie on my laptop. Not the best way to watch a movie but a very fun day never the less. And now I am tried at the end of a long week, ready for some down time and a good night sleep. Life is in the details, as always. I already picked up what I'm going to throw away tomorrow morning so my day is complete. Just the last touch ups on this blog entry and I'm ready to hit the sack. I am thankful to my daughter for coming here to visit. I am thankful for a great evening we spent together. I am thankful I can go to sleep now at the end if this very long week.

The countdown just begun

Day 1330 - so I finally booked my trip and now the count down is on. I can't wait to be there and see my children and my granddaughter. It's still more than a month away, and I have to admit I never booked a trip so early, but I am so very happy I did it. I also keep my resolution to throw away unneeded things every single day and that makes me very happy as well. It's not that you can see the difference in my apartment yet, still too cluttered and over packed with things I don't really need, but going through my things looking with a very different way at all I have us very important and very refreshing indeed. I hold myself not to throw too much on a single day, working that I won't have enough fir a full year but this is nonsense, I have enough for a few years with no real problem. I have to admit that even if it doesn't show I still get a lot of joy from things I manage to part with and I believe it will become easier as time goes by. I am thankful for a very good ticket I found and bout today. I am thankful for a house clearing idea that is still going on; or better yet, for a life clearing idea.

Planning my travel

Day 1329 - I'm trying to order tickets for my next month's travel to visit my kids but technical problems didn't clear the way yet. I see a certain price but when I try to order that ticket I can't get it. Seems to me like a classical bait and switch. Not so legal, of course, but after three days with the same scenario I'm starting to suspect its not so innocent. Still, the prices are much lower this year and I have more than a month so I'm sure ill find a good ticket, I'm just a little frustrated right now about the process. As I said at the end of the day, I'm going to see my children and granddaughter so all is good and I can't wait for this trip. It's been almost a year since I was there, too long by all standards. So I am thankful I can go and see my children every so often; I don't take it for granted and I'm so very thankful I can do that, both physically and financially. I am thankful we live in an era where transportation across the globe is something quick and obvious.

Day 1328 - we finished the formal studies in my numerology class. Now we have 5 weeks of practice. So today we had the first "client"; a woman that we had to analyze and give her our recommendations. It was challenging and very interesting, all in the same time. I am very slow in the process and unsure of myself when facing a real client but it takes practice, like every new skill we learn, and this is what we will be doing in the coming month.

Throwing away more stuff

Day 1327 - I am getting excited about this throwing away things I don't need anymore. This evening I started looking for my daily thing but decided to take out of my library six books and continued with few more things from few more closets. In this pace I will have a house down to bare bones in a very short time. The funny thing is that after he initial hesitation I am excited about the new challenge and can't wait for the next day. I don't want to over do it so after about 15 items I called it a day. I think the fact that it spreads over a long period is very important and part if the lesson. I even cleaned my email contact list today. It's contagious and thrilling. And I am so very happy that I feel this way instead of hesitation or have second thoughts about getting rid of so many things; that my attachment is under control. And I am most of all thankful for the progress I make in clearing my life and my mind of unnecessary things.

Uncluttered

Day 1326 - in almost every book about spiritual growth you can find the idea that cluttering our lives with stuff clutters our mind as well. That attachment of any kind is not good for us. In theory I know all that, but in reality I find it very difficult to let go, as you can see by the many entries I devoted to the subject. This morning I decided to start acting on that. I decided to throw or give away at least one item a day; baby steps into uncluttering my life. And I started with a bang and threw away a box full of things I really don't need and from now on at least one item away for a whole year. I think my life and my house will look much better by the end of that year!! I am thankful I finally mastered the courage to start acting in this notion I know is so very important for me.

Day 1325 - a day that started with rain and ended with a sunburn on the beach. End of summer in a nutshell.

Technology

Day 1324 - I forgot my cellphone charger in the store so my phone just died. It's such a strange feeling. And it makes me realize how dependent I am on technology. I am typing without my reading glasses so I can just hope that it comes out legible. One more point to the above argument. So reading glasses are crucial if I want to be able to read, but some other fidgets are not so and I think I have to start paying more attention to that. Maybe a day without phone. Not sure I can handle that :-( I am thankful I'm back on the air, even if its still just 12% charged. I am thankful for the interesting issue it brought to light; I hope to start doing some xhanges about that.

There are days like that also

Day 1323 - a challenging day on too many levels. I am thankful when a day like that comes to its end and I hope for another day tomorrow, hopefully a better one.

Midweek date

Day 1322 - we went out tonight for coffee and cakes, something we normally do in the middle of the week. It was so nice to sit outside, now that the fall is creeping in and the nights are cooler and less humid. And it was nice to break the routine and do something different. I love it that something so simple like sitting in a cafe can be so special if you do it with someone dear to you. And I am so thankful to have all these specials gifts. I am thankful for a wonderful date with my partner. I am thankful for my daughter's visit here tonight.

Karma in action

Day 1321 - a numerology lesson that floored me. It shed light on my life in a way I didn't expect. Suddenly it shows you how many things are out if our control, how much we are preprogrammed and each one of us is coming here with a manual that we have to follow. Sadly too many of us are not connected enough to our soul, thus to these higher plans. And so we wonder around, doing the best we can, listening too much to people around us that have different numbers and because of that different set of rules to follow. How sad. I see a real mission here to do something good for people I'll meet after I'll have more knowledge and experience. By getting the right advice in the right time they can change the course if their life for the better. I did not learn this on time to do that for me but I can do it now for others. I am thankful for an earth shuttering lesson. I am thankful for a sacred job I chose without even realizing its significance at the time.

A nostalgic evening

Day 1320 - I was reading today through some old blog entries, from our first dates, almost two years ago. It's so nice to see how it all started, nice and innocent and full of hope. I was amazed to see how much pain I still harbored then. It makes me realize how much I've changed. I am in a very different place in my life, I am looking forward with open heart and open mind; and I learned not to be afraid of anything (or at least strive for that). We work together on a mystic shop we opened; I study numerology... Who could have guessed back then, in the early days... I am thankful for every day I lived here in my homeland. I am thankful for every little step I took on my personal journey. I am thankful I have to read a blog to remember how sad and hurt I once was; that I was able to take such a big leap.

Fall is almost here

Day 1319 - the first rain of the season; not a serious one but still, about two months ahead of norm so it's a big deal. You can already feel the fall creeping in. The nights are cooler, the first leaves starting to change colors and the days are shorter. But rain is a different story altogether. Last year was very dry so I hope this early rain is a sign for a good year to come. We live in a very dry country so we live by the amount of rain we get, so this is big news. And we learn to appreciate and live every drop of rain. So, today we had the first rain of the season, big news, my friends. Still it's early in the season so the rest of the day was hot and muggy, but it's already getting cooler again, as the hours pass and the night deepens. I love this season, the feeling of early fall. It's not so dramatic like in New England but still pretty and special. I am thankful for the reminder of the passing of the seasons. I am thankful for this little hint of early fall. I am thankful for an amazing month at the store, our very best yet; it will be a real challenge to follow.

A very special weekend

Day 1318 - A weekend spent with the man I love. A walk on the beach yesterday until very late, a day trip today and just being together with no work and daily commitments is very special indeed. We are together almost two years now, and what I am realizing is that our relationship is getting better with time. That instead of getting into some kind of a routine we keep it fresh and intense, and being 56 years old I know it's not a given. I've been in relationship before and I know that time is its worst enemy, that routine is killing the love and romance. And here things are only getting better and our love deeper and more meaningful. I hope we will be smart enough to keep it that way for a very long time. I wrote on my Bucket list that I want to experience a big love before I die, I think I can mark it as "done". I am so thankful for his presence in my life, for blessings more than I thought possible.

About adult children

Day 1317 - still under the impression of my son's accident. He sent me pictures today and I'm glad I talked to him before I saw pictures of the car he was in. It sure is scary. I started reading about concussions so I understand a little more what it means and it's not funny; it's a brain injury and it has to be taken seriously. I told him that but he is not doing enough to follow the instructions his doctors gave him. All I can do is to hope he'll be ok. It's not easy to be parents to older kids, they don't have to listen to us anymore and can so what ever they please. And we have to sit back, take a deep breath and let them make all the decision without our interference. We did it back then, when we were their age; now it's their time to do that just as well.
I am thankful my son is doing well and got lucky with only minor injuries. I am thankful to see him making decisions about his health and his life and like every parent I pray they'll be the right ones.

An accident

Day 1316 - I got a call from my son today that he was involved in a car accident, that the car was totaled and he got a concussion. It sure isn't something I want to hear in a phone call from the other side of the world. But he is alive and unharmed other than the cuncussion so we all have to be thankful for that, it could have ended badly.

Day 1315 -

Taking it to the next stage

Day 1314 - we are almost done with new materials in my numerology class. It's not that we know everything but we are in the basic class and the rest will be covered in the advance class. Now we are learning how to put it all together. So for two hours we worked on one case and looked at it from every direction. It's so interesting and so amazing, to see how everything falls into ace, how fate and the person play their parts. We have one more class like that and than we start a mini seminar of five weeks with real people, not from our class that we will analyze. At the end if that we will be in a position to be a beginner reader. How exciting!!
I am so thankful I decided to take this class; so thankful to a new world unfolding in front if me. I am thankful for this unique opportunity to connect with higher order and hopefully the ability to put it to good use and help people make better choices. I am so thankful for all this class is doing for me, for places it lifts me; for the gifts I receive.

Letting go of the past

Day 1313 - I could not post my blog yesterday, so here I am a little late, but still live and kicking and most important of all still thankful for every day I live here, on our beautiful planet.
I reading a lot, as always, I guess it's just a part of who I am. I can never see myself without some form of a reading material within reach and with this habit many realizations are just waiting behind the corner to pop into my life and change something; be it a way I look at a situation, evaluate things, consider my wants and needs, the way I look at life in general. And as I am getting more and more into the enormous world of mysticism I see things differently. It sometimes questions my very core beliefs and I love it. I love it when I have to re-consider things I took for granted, I feel it keeps my mind working and prevent me from being stuck. Nothing is a taboo, nothing is sacred in our set of beliefs and it's really good to shake it well every once in a while, to see what still works and what can I part with, and what I can add that will make my journey more profound and meaningful. Sometimes I struggle with an idea for a long time before I make a decision if it's right for me. One such subject is the act of letting go of the past. Be it a good memory or a bad one; a person that hurt or disappointed; a person who was good but is no longer in my life or any other issue that I carry with me for no reason. I read about this a long time ago that when our "truck" is too full with "garbage" we carry with us we have no room for new experiences in life, that we have to "unload our truck" and be lighter and more open. It sounds very logical but I also knew right away that this is a heavy one and it will take me a long time to be able to adopt it and make it part of my life. But as time goes by I make small steps in this direction, I let go of stuff that I kept for no reason for years and carried it with me even across the big ocean and in great expense. I only try to imagine how heavy is the mental load of such a baggage, what is the toll it takes on my soul and my mind. But as hard as it is, I do the work and one by one I let go of memories no longer needed, of people that their contribution to my life is negative and I keep them there only because it is difficult to let go. And with every little thing or memory I let go I am thankful, I feel stronger and more assure of myself, no longer bound by a past I cannot change and don't need in the present. More free to make decisions from where I am now on my path and not from where I used to be. I did one more act of letting go today and it feels so good, so right. It's time to put the past where it belongs and move on.

I am thankful for lessons, for challenges, for opportunities to learn what I am made of and what I am capable of doing. I am thankful for my past but I made a decision to let it go and be free at last. I am thankful for every day of my life.

an hairloom recipe

Day 1312 - many years ago, way before it became a right of passage, my grandfather visited India for a few months in search of new plants that he was planning to acclimate in our then very young country. He brought mango and few other things but most important of all for our family was a very special recipe of chutney. I used to love it when my grandma made it but then they both died and I grew up and I thought this recipe was gone forever. I lived for many years abroad near a very large Indian community but never found a chutney that even remotely reminded me of this legendary one. and then, few years ago I found out that my mom has it and I was able to taste this divine condiment again. and today, after several years of saying "I really should make my own chutney" I finally did!! and it's not difficult, as long as you plan it ahead of time and have all the ingredients. I don't know why I had such a barrier but it's finally here with few large jars full to the brim and I cannot wait for tomorrow to make fresh rice and eat it. I was talking yesterday about enjoying the little things, well, I am so very happy I did it and from now on it will become a regular thing to make chutney. My beloved grandparents are long gone, but tonight and I am a little closer to them, thinking of them fondly.
life is in the details and tonight I am so thankful I finally decided to make a stand and do it myself.

it's about time

Day 1311 - We  watched a very cute movie - "about time" it talks about living your life to the fullest, every day of it. Not by re-living the days but by doing it right, by being present in our life, appreciating how lucky we are and acknowledging how special every moment is and not letting it slip by un-noticed. I want to live this way as much as I could, I think this is why we are here for. To make it right, to make it matter, to make every moment shine. I would love to come to my final moments knowing that there is very little I would change, a that I have lived a good, meaningful life. what a lovely movie, what a wonderful way to live by.
I am thankful for this reminder, it is so easy to forget and I hope I never will, not for too many days anyway.

Friday night and I'm tired

Day 1310 - an evening with my daughter. I'm so tired though. I hope I'll be in a better shape tomorrow. Still it's nice having her here, as tired as I am. She is moving further south next week so this is our last meeting before she moves. She's all grown up and making grown up decisions. I enjoy seeing that. It's very special for a parent to see his/her kids as adults. I feel so lucky to be here and be part of that. 

An early call

Day 1309 - this morning at 9 am we got a phone call from someone that was waiting outside our store. He wanted to buy something and was checking when are we'll be there. we live only few minutes away and we were on our way out when he called. In no time we were there and could help him right away. It is the first time we are being called this way, having a client waiting for us and it's really nice. It's just one more evidence to show our store is making waves and people are starting to notice us and talk about us. Mystic store is not exactly main stream business, thus slower to penetrate and establish itself. But every day we see in more ways that we are doing well, that we are catching the attention of the right people and it ripples. We have as a next door neighbor a tattoo store and people are calling them all the time, it feels good to be in this situation for the first time also. I wish for many more of those calls. and the sells info still climbing the charts we are already 25% over our best month and we still have 9 days to go. I sure hope we are going to move into black for the first time.
I am thankful for every person that gets into our store, for this very special phone call and hope for many more. I am thankful for another good day at the store and in life.

A very short entry

Day 1308 - a good day in the store, a very long day though, and I am very tired so just a brief entry. To recognize a day that past and will never be here again. Just to never fail to that for what I have, for all the amazing gifts in my life. I feel so lucky and blessed.

A lucky choice

Day 1307 - another Tuesday brings with it another numerology class and I, like every week, is amazed at the accuracy of its analysis. At the power, thus responsibility, that is given to me. I find myself every week driving the one hour long way back home after a very long day, so excited and invigorated with the new knowledge, with the new discoveries of the possibilities and the endless information we can get from something so simple as one's birth date and name. And now we also start getting the analysis tools to help people make better choices and even heal. And this is where things are getting exciting. The idea I can help family, friends and strangers is something I like very much. I took this class because it works well into the theme of a mystic store, I didn't think it will be what it turned out to be. A tool for self development and help others do that as well.
I am thankful for this choice, for the rewards I get for walking this path. I promise to use it wisely and to the benefit of others.