Karma in action

Day 1321 - a numerology lesson that floored me. It shed light on my life in a way I didn't expect. Suddenly it shows you how many things are out if our control, how much we are preprogrammed and each one of us is coming here with a manual that we have to follow. Sadly too many of us are not connected enough to our soul, thus to these higher plans. And so we wonder around, doing the best we can, listening too much to people around us that have different numbers and because of that different set of rules to follow. How sad. I see a real mission here to do something good for people I'll meet after I'll have more knowledge and experience. By getting the right advice in the right time they can change the course if their life for the better. I did not learn this on time to do that for me but I can do it now for others. I am thankful for an earth shuttering lesson. I am thankful for a sacred job I chose without even realizing its significance at the time.

A nostalgic evening

Day 1320 - I was reading today through some old blog entries, from our first dates, almost two years ago. It's so nice to see how it all started, nice and innocent and full of hope. I was amazed to see how much pain I still harbored then. It makes me realize how much I've changed. I am in a very different place in my life, I am looking forward with open heart and open mind; and I learned not to be afraid of anything (or at least strive for that). We work together on a mystic shop we opened; I study numerology... Who could have guessed back then, in the early days... I am thankful for every day I lived here in my homeland. I am thankful for every little step I took on my personal journey. I am thankful I have to read a blog to remember how sad and hurt I once was; that I was able to take such a big leap.

Fall is almost here

Day 1319 - the first rain of the season; not a serious one but still, about two months ahead of norm so it's a big deal. You can already feel the fall creeping in. The nights are cooler, the first leaves starting to change colors and the days are shorter. But rain is a different story altogether. Last year was very dry so I hope this early rain is a sign for a good year to come. We live in a very dry country so we live by the amount of rain we get, so this is big news. And we learn to appreciate and live every drop of rain. So, today we had the first rain of the season, big news, my friends. Still it's early in the season so the rest of the day was hot and muggy, but it's already getting cooler again, as the hours pass and the night deepens. I love this season, the feeling of early fall. It's not so dramatic like in New England but still pretty and special. I am thankful for the reminder of the passing of the seasons. I am thankful for this little hint of early fall. I am thankful for an amazing month at the store, our very best yet; it will be a real challenge to follow.

A very special weekend

Day 1318 - A weekend spent with the man I love. A walk on the beach yesterday until very late, a day trip today and just being together with no work and daily commitments is very special indeed. We are together almost two years now, and what I am realizing is that our relationship is getting better with time. That instead of getting into some kind of a routine we keep it fresh and intense, and being 56 years old I know it's not a given. I've been in relationship before and I know that time is its worst enemy, that routine is killing the love and romance. And here things are only getting better and our love deeper and more meaningful. I hope we will be smart enough to keep it that way for a very long time. I wrote on my Bucket list that I want to experience a big love before I die, I think I can mark it as "done". I am so thankful for his presence in my life, for blessings more than I thought possible.

About adult children

Day 1317 - still under the impression of my son's accident. He sent me pictures today and I'm glad I talked to him before I saw pictures of the car he was in. It sure is scary. I started reading about concussions so I understand a little more what it means and it's not funny; it's a brain injury and it has to be taken seriously. I told him that but he is not doing enough to follow the instructions his doctors gave him. All I can do is to hope he'll be ok. It's not easy to be parents to older kids, they don't have to listen to us anymore and can so what ever they please. And we have to sit back, take a deep breath and let them make all the decision without our interference. We did it back then, when we were their age; now it's their time to do that just as well.
I am thankful my son is doing well and got lucky with only minor injuries. I am thankful to see him making decisions about his health and his life and like every parent I pray they'll be the right ones.

An accident

Day 1316 - I got a call from my son today that he was involved in a car accident, that the car was totaled and he got a concussion. It sure isn't something I want to hear in a phone call from the other side of the world. But he is alive and unharmed other than the cuncussion so we all have to be thankful for that, it could have ended badly.

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Taking it to the next stage

Day 1314 - we are almost done with new materials in my numerology class. It's not that we know everything but we are in the basic class and the rest will be covered in the advance class. Now we are learning how to put it all together. So for two hours we worked on one case and looked at it from every direction. It's so interesting and so amazing, to see how everything falls into ace, how fate and the person play their parts. We have one more class like that and than we start a mini seminar of five weeks with real people, not from our class that we will analyze. At the end if that we will be in a position to be a beginner reader. How exciting!!
I am so thankful I decided to take this class; so thankful to a new world unfolding in front if me. I am thankful for this unique opportunity to connect with higher order and hopefully the ability to put it to good use and help people make better choices. I am so thankful for all this class is doing for me, for places it lifts me; for the gifts I receive.

Letting go of the past

Day 1313 - I could not post my blog yesterday, so here I am a little late, but still live and kicking and most important of all still thankful for every day I live here, on our beautiful planet.
I reading a lot, as always, I guess it's just a part of who I am. I can never see myself without some form of a reading material within reach and with this habit many realizations are just waiting behind the corner to pop into my life and change something; be it a way I look at a situation, evaluate things, consider my wants and needs, the way I look at life in general. And as I am getting more and more into the enormous world of mysticism I see things differently. It sometimes questions my very core beliefs and I love it. I love it when I have to re-consider things I took for granted, I feel it keeps my mind working and prevent me from being stuck. Nothing is a taboo, nothing is sacred in our set of beliefs and it's really good to shake it well every once in a while, to see what still works and what can I part with, and what I can add that will make my journey more profound and meaningful. Sometimes I struggle with an idea for a long time before I make a decision if it's right for me. One such subject is the act of letting go of the past. Be it a good memory or a bad one; a person that hurt or disappointed; a person who was good but is no longer in my life or any other issue that I carry with me for no reason. I read about this a long time ago that when our "truck" is too full with "garbage" we carry with us we have no room for new experiences in life, that we have to "unload our truck" and be lighter and more open. It sounds very logical but I also knew right away that this is a heavy one and it will take me a long time to be able to adopt it and make it part of my life. But as time goes by I make small steps in this direction, I let go of stuff that I kept for no reason for years and carried it with me even across the big ocean and in great expense. I only try to imagine how heavy is the mental load of such a baggage, what is the toll it takes on my soul and my mind. But as hard as it is, I do the work and one by one I let go of memories no longer needed, of people that their contribution to my life is negative and I keep them there only because it is difficult to let go. And with every little thing or memory I let go I am thankful, I feel stronger and more assure of myself, no longer bound by a past I cannot change and don't need in the present. More free to make decisions from where I am now on my path and not from where I used to be. I did one more act of letting go today and it feels so good, so right. It's time to put the past where it belongs and move on.

I am thankful for lessons, for challenges, for opportunities to learn what I am made of and what I am capable of doing. I am thankful for my past but I made a decision to let it go and be free at last. I am thankful for every day of my life.

an hairloom recipe

Day 1312 - many years ago, way before it became a right of passage, my grandfather visited India for a few months in search of new plants that he was planning to acclimate in our then very young country. He brought mango and few other things but most important of all for our family was a very special recipe of chutney. I used to love it when my grandma made it but then they both died and I grew up and I thought this recipe was gone forever. I lived for many years abroad near a very large Indian community but never found a chutney that even remotely reminded me of this legendary one. and then, few years ago I found out that my mom has it and I was able to taste this divine condiment again. and today, after several years of saying "I really should make my own chutney" I finally did!! and it's not difficult, as long as you plan it ahead of time and have all the ingredients. I don't know why I had such a barrier but it's finally here with few large jars full to the brim and I cannot wait for tomorrow to make fresh rice and eat it. I was talking yesterday about enjoying the little things, well, I am so very happy I did it and from now on it will become a regular thing to make chutney. My beloved grandparents are long gone, but tonight and I am a little closer to them, thinking of them fondly.
life is in the details and tonight I am so thankful I finally decided to make a stand and do it myself.

it's about time

Day 1311 - We  watched a very cute movie - "about time" it talks about living your life to the fullest, every day of it. Not by re-living the days but by doing it right, by being present in our life, appreciating how lucky we are and acknowledging how special every moment is and not letting it slip by un-noticed. I want to live this way as much as I could, I think this is why we are here for. To make it right, to make it matter, to make every moment shine. I would love to come to my final moments knowing that there is very little I would change, a that I have lived a good, meaningful life. what a lovely movie, what a wonderful way to live by.
I am thankful for this reminder, it is so easy to forget and I hope I never will, not for too many days anyway.

Friday night and I'm tired

Day 1310 - an evening with my daughter. I'm so tired though. I hope I'll be in a better shape tomorrow. Still it's nice having her here, as tired as I am. She is moving further south next week so this is our last meeting before she moves. She's all grown up and making grown up decisions. I enjoy seeing that. It's very special for a parent to see his/her kids as adults. I feel so lucky to be here and be part of that. 

An early call

Day 1309 - this morning at 9 am we got a phone call from someone that was waiting outside our store. He wanted to buy something and was checking when are we'll be there. we live only few minutes away and we were on our way out when he called. In no time we were there and could help him right away. It is the first time we are being called this way, having a client waiting for us and it's really nice. It's just one more evidence to show our store is making waves and people are starting to notice us and talk about us. Mystic store is not exactly main stream business, thus slower to penetrate and establish itself. But every day we see in more ways that we are doing well, that we are catching the attention of the right people and it ripples. We have as a next door neighbor a tattoo store and people are calling them all the time, it feels good to be in this situation for the first time also. I wish for many more of those calls. and the sells info still climbing the charts we are already 25% over our best month and we still have 9 days to go. I sure hope we are going to move into black for the first time.
I am thankful for every person that gets into our store, for this very special phone call and hope for many more. I am thankful for another good day at the store and in life.

A very short entry

Day 1308 - a good day in the store, a very long day though, and I am very tired so just a brief entry. To recognize a day that past and will never be here again. Just to never fail to that for what I have, for all the amazing gifts in my life. I feel so lucky and blessed.

A lucky choice

Day 1307 - another Tuesday brings with it another numerology class and I, like every week, is amazed at the accuracy of its analysis. At the power, thus responsibility, that is given to me. I find myself every week driving the one hour long way back home after a very long day, so excited and invigorated with the new knowledge, with the new discoveries of the possibilities and the endless information we can get from something so simple as one's birth date and name. And now we also start getting the analysis tools to help people make better choices and even heal. And this is where things are getting exciting. The idea I can help family, friends and strangers is something I like very much. I took this class because it works well into the theme of a mystic store, I didn't think it will be what it turned out to be. A tool for self development and help others do that as well.
I am thankful for this choice, for the rewards I get for walking this path. I promise to use it wisely and to the benefit of others.