Day 1836 - my daughter is visiting here today. We had a long, and difficult talk about the elephant in the room that usually we tip toed around it. I see her pain and i don't know how to solve the situation, but to pay no attention to it. Easier said than done, I know. But i don't see any other solution.  I still hope for a break that will change things for the better.
Regardless, it was so good to have her here tonight and spend precioy time with her.

Day 1835 - a beautiful weather after days indoors due to the cold.

Day 1834 - friday at last.

Day 1833 -

Day 1832 - another long night with frustrating outcome. For some reason it all works well and then the program crashes and all the pictures i added apear as an error. Not sure yet how to solve the issue. So I trudge forward, trimming away nd hopefully I'll find a solution. There are only two more weeks left. Much work to do.
I am thankful for the opportunity o work on this project, it might sound strange, but it onnects me to my mom in a whole new way, in a more compassionate way, and imr very thankful for that.

Day 1831 - I'm working on the video for my mom's 80'th birthday. Not a vrry professional but as good as i can get it. I sure learn a lot in the process and enjoy this very much. It's the best gift I could give my mom and all of the family for this very special day.

Day 1830 - it's freezing cold here for the first time this winter. so cold that its difficult to warm the house. I can't even imagine being outdoors right now, being with no source of heat.

Day 1829 - for half a day i recorded my mom as she told memories of her youth as part of her 80th birthday video. I also scanned old photos for the same purpose. It was so very interesting. After all these years there are still so many stories thst haven't bren told.

Day 1828 - visiting my mom. It's a long drive that I'm gladly doing. Who knows how much time together we still have. Life is precious and we have to take advantage of it as much as we can. Otherwise we'll regret it one day.
I'm thankful for every moment I have, for every brearh of air I take. I'm thankful for food and water, for a comfortable bed and a warm house. I am thankful for all the love in my life. I feel so blessed.

Insomnia

Day 1827 - i couldn't fall asleep last night so after an hour and a half i decided to just grab a book and read until I'll doze off. Well, i just finished the book at 5:30 am and than tried again... but i enjoyed the book very much, a sales book and success in life as well, and made my resolve to keep developing myself in this direction. I'll take coaching, seminars, CDs books, what ever i can find. I want and will set a clear goal and aim as a razor in this direction. Fod long enough i tolerated mediocracy and non doing but no more. I have the right, like everyone else, to aim for the sky and get there.
So even insomnia has its benefits. Tonight i am thankful for a sleepless night and all the understandings that came in its wake.

Day 1826 - i got all the forms today as well as the business cards and i excited that now i can start working. Few hours later a friend pointed out an almost fatal error, few words that i thought was smart to add but in second thought, not so much. So i guess it will have to be printed again. Too bad, but it has to be done. The truth is that mow that i have the business cards i can start working so its not a delay, just some extra cost.

Day 1825 - as thecstorm continued to pound and my daughter was coming here, i decided to stay home today. I cooked, which is always nice and I read some more in my sales book. And then, of course, I spent precious time with her. It was great seeing her. Living in the far south, and being a student, take up all her time so we don't meet as often as we'd like but, this is life. We are all so busy. So, I am thankful for every moment we can carve out for family time.

Day 1824 -huge storm outside.  The wing is howling and it sounds almost like a  hurricane in this wind swept area of the city.  And I'm at home, cozy and safe in such a merciless night.
I am thankful above all for shelter. I can't even imagine how it feels to be outside on a night like that.

For the love of hiking

Day 1823 - with all our hiking trips, and with a plan for an overnight one soon, we realized we are missing few items to complete our gear so after work today we went shopping. It's always fun to buy camping and hiking gear and today was no exception. I'm happy to reaport that our "coffe kit" is complet again and I also got new thermals. Ready to go for some serious and tasty hike.
I know i said i will not be thankful for purchasing stuff, and I adhere to that. I am thankful not for the purchase but for the joy of hiking and for making it even better by these new additions to my gear. I hope illr be able to enjoy them for many years to come.

Day 1822 - another segment of the Israel National Trail. A glorious day, a beautiful landscape and a challenging terrain. A perfect combination. I came home so tired that I took a shower and went to bed, even forgetting to blog. So here I am at 3am fixing that..

Day 1821 - I'm reading the book re—awakening the giant within by  Tony Robbins, and decided to take the 10 day challenge. To take full control of my mental and emotional state. A very interesting idea indeed. To be in conrol of them instead of letting them control me.
Day one was a success. I'll have to face some real challenges and see how much I incorporated the new ideas but regardless of the results, the idea is very interesting.

Day 1820 -

Day 1819 - i am reading a book by tony robins "awaking the giant within". I don't now how I didn't stumble on ut before, but etter niw than never. Some very powerful ideas indeed. I know I'll adopt several udeas from what I read so far and more for sure, wilk follow. Adding a mentor to tge ride, even uf only virtually, is something one shoukd do and continue studying bew things. But most important of all is integrating it into my kife, on which I am wirkibg right niw...

Day 1818 - what a nice number. But way too late to blog.

Day 1817 - a very late bed time as I was watching some life  coaching videos. I love this stuff and I know I can always learn new things. Expending my horizons with every passing day. It always amazes me how much there is to learn, I guess I'll die learning, but at least hapy as a lark for doing so. And of course applying as much as I can into my own life to better them and make them a life worth living. To find a long term and outside of myself goal and work towards it so in five years I'll be able to look back and love what I see. It's never too late and I am very much a young at heart person and a late bloomer so I feel as if all is stillopen and awaits me.
I am thankful for that.

Day 1816 - I sent all the real estate paper work to the print. Contracts, reciepts, bysiness cards — the work. In less than a week it will be ready and we can start to work. Exciting after all the preparations to be few days before the starting point. So few more times to read the stuff I learned in class and off we go to the real world, were ideas are tested for better and worse. But I am confident I can make it happened and even make it big. It take determination and persistence and i have both. I wonder how long it will take me to get my first listing...

Day 1815 - a break in the storm allowed for a quick visit to the big city and meeting with my son. A very nice afternoon indeed. Every time I visit that city I wonder if I should move there, or at leadt a little southern of where I live. I moved here originally just because I chikened out and was intimidated by that city, but all my family is south of here and i dontt even have friends here so really no reason to be here. Sonething to think about, for sure...

Day 1814 - a huge storm started yesterday nught and continued in full force through out the day. So i decided to use the day for grocery shopping and later for cooking. It was so nice to have a hot meal at the end of a day lije tgat.

Few good days

Day 1813 - after months of very little work in the store, the past few days have been good to us. But it doesn't change my mind about closing tge store. It just came too late when i already made up my mind. And, besides, I'm suspicious of every such event, i already learned that in its wake weeks might come again. So I bless every such day because it helps reduce our inventory and lower the loss even if just a little. The store starts to feel a little emptier and several items are already missing on our shelves and of course I wonder how much we won't be able to sell...
in the mean time, I'm thankful for every such a day, for every single item that leaves the store for its new home.

Day 1812 - good weather, nice evening and going to bed before midnight — life is good!

A change of luck

Day 1811 - there is an ad on the radio in which a lady named Arela calls to congratulate someone for winning the lottery, which I never take seriusly, just like any other ad. Well, a woman came into our store today, someone who visited couple of months ago stating that she wantsbto buy a lot of stuff and never came back, until today. She made a very nice purchase (about a third of our monthly gross ladt month) and then told us her story. She lost her job few months ago and was in a lot of debt to the point she didn't have any means to pay her next credit card bill. In a desperate move she made a wish from the universe with full intension, to somehow be helped out of her problems. Two day later she got a call from that Arela from the ad that she won a vety nice sum in the lottery. She paid alk her debt and today came to our store and made that purchase. So e got to enjoy some of her winning spree as well. In times like now it is a very welcome thing indeed.  What was nice also is that while she was in tge store we got two phone calls from people who saw our website and wanted to make a purchase of some items. So she definatly brought some good vibes to the store. The funny thing is that even with all these purchases the store is still so full of merchandise and it doesn't look any emptier.
I am thankful for a very good day today after few tough weeks. I hope few more like it will come in it's wake.

Day 1810 - my daughter is here today for a visit with her boyfriend. We spent a lovely evening together until very late at night. We really don't get to do that very often so i'm thankful for every such opportunity. I keep being excited seeing her all grown up and tredding her way in life so nicely.

Day 1809 - cold and rainy all day today, but at least the car strated no problems with the new battery.

Determination

Day 1808 - a very cold morning did not keep us at home, nor the very dark clouds and a forcast of possible rain. Armed with an umbrella and high spirits we climbed the 57 stairs to the street and started the engine, orvshould i say, tried to start it... well, few days ago my partner told me he thinks the car's battery is about to die (he can hear these kind of things, while i just drive it dumbly). And sure enough it picked Saturday as the  best time to do that. But even this only delayed us by an hour. We jump started the car with the help of a kind neighbor, found an open garage on a Saturday and replaced the battery. And thatvwas the beginning of a fun day in nature, cold and all.

Day 1807 - the new year announced itself with thr first real winter storm. An all night gale that continued well into the day. And now, after few hours of break it's hauling once again. Itsr wonderful tobstay home on an eve like that, eat comforting fiods and watch movies. A perfect new year's day fun!
I am thankful in a day like that for food  and warmth and a dry place to hide from the weather and sleep.